Any one wondering why I started sampling a new ink every day? It hit me one day that it was multi dimensional. Originally I thought it was just because of how delighted I was sampling inks when I got the 2021 Inkvent Calendar. It was more than a year into the pandemic – I needed some good distractions. Advent calendars are something you open once a day for 25 days – a small joy, for 25 days in a row. I got about a week into it and I was hooked. I decided to rebuild the 2019 Inkvent calendar, to open in November, then thought in December I could try out some more shimmer inks, then…it continued.
What it turned into was a Routine – with a capitol R. Routines for me are fairly inflexible and are intended to set a tone or a mood. They tend to be coupled with what I’ve been calling Transitions and Sectors (an idea I developed after reading Jamie Knight & Lion’s ideas on tunnels, mine are more about orienting myself in space, to help me navigate). Routines are comforting for me as an Autistic with ADHD, and it’s something that becomes easy to follow, which is helpful when I am low on spoons, or overwhelmed, or exhausted. And Sectors are helpful because I have set up spaces that are intended for a small palette of topics. A lot of people do this actually, not just Autistics or ADHD – someone might have a workshop or a craft room. I do something similar but with a lot of intentionality and practiced focus. Which tends to result in a heightened state of concentration – but only on what is intended in that space – or sector. For example, if I am in my study, which is not a space I use for work, I find it very difficult to concentrate on a work topic. But when I am in my office, which is the Sector I use for work – I find it’s easy to concentrate on work.
What does all of this have to do with pens????? Well. Routines and Transitions and Sectors are how I manage my need for executive functions. It’s basically how I get myself to do stuff haha. And I’ve done a lot of research and thinking about how to get myself to engage with things, when I hit a period of Autistic Burnout in 2021. Actually, I developed this thinking alongside my interest in fountain pens and inks. For several reasons I am continuing to discover and develop, a solid way for me to engage in something is to tie it into fountain pens and inks.
For example. Getting out of bed can be difficult because of the energy it takes to get started when waking up in pain. And getting out of bed will only increase the pain. When you wake up in pain every day, for years, the motivation to get out of bed dwindles. But. You’ve gotta get out of bed. Sounds simple, doesn’t it? Not when you have Chronic Pain and are ADHD. So, I handle this with Routines and Transitions and Sectors. Getting out of bed means I get to go to the desk in my study, which is the Sector that is set up for me to sample inks. The Routine is what I do to get from bed to desk. The Sector is the desk in the study. And the Transition is the time between bed and eating breakfast. Most times, that’s enough. Our morning routine accommodates the time it takes – I do this while Aaron makes breakfast. Once I am at that desk, I am comfortable and I have a a defined task which I don’t even have to think too hard about. I can complete a task that I enjoy, first thing in the morning. The routine is calming, soothing.
Sitting at that desk is comfortable because every thing I need is within reach. There is only the usual expected chaos in the house (dogs going out, getting fed, kitchen noises). I have a pre defined and agreed on amount of time to do something I find extremely comforting, and sets me up to use my systems for the rest of the day. Timing is extremely important, but I’ll get into that later. The routine we have in the morning, when I am in the sector for pens and inks, I am specifically looking for what my range of motion, pain levels, and sensory sensitivities will be like that day. And all of that data helps me be successful with my day.
There are big movements – walking, transferring from one chair to another. I get that data from getting to my desk from the bedroom, getting dressed. There are small movements – opening drawers to get the supplies I use, manipulating those tools to apply the ink to the sample card and my notebooks with a q-tip and a dip pen. There are big sounds – boiling kettle, talking to the dogs, dishes hitting the counter. There are small sounds – drawers opening, tea being poured, pen on paper.
If I have trouble getting from my wheelchair to the desk chair, or reaching out to the drawer, or handling the pen, then I know I need to be very careful with my movements that day. If I’m careful, I can conserve energy, instead of wasting it and finding out the hard way that I should have been careful. If the sounds in the kitchen are overwhelming me then I know I need to be careful with sounds and other sensory input like light or textures or food. If I am careful and wear noise canceling headphones, dim the lights preemptively, don’t eat stressful foods, then I can prevent a melt down. Or at least reduce the likelihood.
Over time this routine solidified into something I need to get myself going in the morning. Some people go for a run, or sit on the porch with a hot cup of coffee, or journal for an hour. I listen to tea being made and sample inks.
